September 11 – Never Forget

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So long as I have this blog, I will never be able to write about anything else on September 11 because it will never be just another day on the calendar to me. Writing about my workouts seems so frivolous today so I will be back tomorrow with my weekly workout recap.

I often think about September 10, 2001 before it all happened. When life was innocent.

When I went to Roosevelt Field mall during my lunch break from work looking for a gift for my mother since her birthday was the next day, September 11. Happy Birthday mom!

When you didn’t really look around you in the mall, worrying about where the emergency exits were or if the man over there was suspicious.

When you didn’t think about terrorists or taking your shoes off in the airport or worry that your peanut butter would somehow count for a liquid on an airplane.

It was the year of my engagement, two months before my wedding day and just a few weeks before my bridal shower.

I remember driving to work the morning of September 11 in the gorgeous morning sunshine with the sunroof open, taking note of the bright blue sky and crisp Autumn-like air. My office was about 30 minutes outside of Manhattan.

I remember being at my desk before 9:00 am (I was always early) and my coworker running in asking if anyone else had heard that a plane had crashed into the World Trader Center.

I remember calling my fiancé (funny to use that term now but that’s what my now ex-husband was) on his cell phone while he was driving to work and he answered shouting about what he was witnessing from the Long Island Expressway just a few exits from the midtown tunnel.

My coworkers and I gathered around to listen to the radio and watch news coverage on one small television.

We were sent home for the day before 11:00 am.

I remember sitting on the floor of the den eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwich with an apple for lunch as I watched the horrific news coverage on the television. I still lived at home at the time, home as in with my parents.

I sat there eating and watching while talking to my best friend Heather on the phone since she was also sent home for the day from work down in Florida. Her uncle worked in the Pentagon but he was okay.

I remember trying to reach friends and family in the city to see that they were okay but the phones didn’t connect so well.

I think back now to the difference in technology. We didn’t have text or cameras built into our phones, the internet didn’t serve us as it does now nor did we have a thing called social media to keep us informed and connected.

I had a Startac phone with no caller id, nothing smart about it other than dialing and offering me call waiting.

I remember baking chocolate chip cookies that night with my cousin Amy, replacing the oil with applesauce and even eating some of the dough raw.

My cousin was stranded at our house because the bridges and tunnels were all shut down which meant she could not get back home to the city.

I remember going with Amy to get my mother a birthday cake that night from TCBY, the only store opened in the area. The town was basically deserted. All of the stores were closed and no one was on the road.

I remember barely sleeping at night for weeks because of the news coverage on television all night long of people looking for their missing loved ones.

I remember being afraid to leave the house in the dark, especially in the mornings before work when I would normally go to the gym.

So instead, I spent my time on the treadmill in my parents’ basement where I felt safe.

I remember hearing about friends of mine who lost their parents, relatives and close friends at the World Trader Center as well as learning about those close to me who survived.

I remember canceling my lavish honeymoon and changing the destination completely because we were afraid to fly or be too far from home, not sure of what the heck would be going on in the world.

I will never forget how afraid I was to go to my aunt’s apartment in the city to celebrate Rosh Hashanah, only a week later. I was afraid to go over the Triboro bridge and afraid to get out of the car when we parked on Lexington Avenue.

I remember the smell of lower Manhattan a month after September 11 when I had no choice but to be downtown for a meeting. The burning smell which lingered on for so long was so strong still at that point and it was a reminder of what we were living through.

I recall the one year anniversary of September 11th being almost as upsetting somehow as the actual day.

One of my co-workers brought in munchkins (not to celebrate but more as an emotional eating session) where we sat for a while and lots of us cried.

As the years keep passing, I don’t forget.

On September 11, 2003, I was nine months pregnant, picking up the keys to our first house which we closed on days earlier. I recall watching the 9/11 news coverage all morning while I continued to pack before going to meet my realtor.

On September 11, 2006, I watched the news coverage as I tried to get my son ready for his first day of preschool. Which was a total disaster of a day – he cried the entire four hours of school and I cried listening to him cry as I sat in the preschool office unable to leave the building.

Four years ago today I left a part-time job in event planning to go off on my own to explore a career for myself by going back to school to further explore a new direction in health, fitness and freelance writing. It really couldn’t have been a happier time and major turning point in my life yet at the same time, I didn’t forget and will never forget.

And here I am today 15 years later, with a son who is close to turning 13 years old, close to celebrating his Bar Mitzvah.

It’s hard to believe that I had a baby only two years after September 11 which means it’s my job as a parent to teach him what happened without scaring him.

I try to keep him from seeing the news coverage and reading articles about what it was like for those who survived yet at the same time, he should know what happened.

He should know where his parents were on that day, that something completely inconceivably horrible occurred but that there are still good people in this world.

He needs to know how New Yorkers and the world came together and most importantly, to never forget.

A few years ago our local mall placed this monument at the entrance. Close to 500 people from my area died that day which even as I write this post, I still can’t comprehend.

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Lately I find myself reading the survivor stories. I couldn’t bring myself to do so in the years past while many of the survivors couldn’t bring themselves to formulate the words until recently.

Their stories leave me without words. As I sat in shock that day, driving home from work with my sunroof closed because I thought the sky was falling, innocent people were trying to escape the actual attack. I will live in awe of their courage and never forget.



Author: The Cookie ChRUNicles

Hi! I'm Meredith. Join me while I run and cook my way through single motherhood. It is always an adventure trying to teach my 12 year old son the benefits of an active lifestyle combined with healthy eating while of course, still leaving room for dessert.

6 thoughts on “September 11 – Never Forget”

  1. I actually wound up reading all the details of each flight last night. Why do I do this? It’s painful but also good to remember these things and go back there. I wasn’t sure how to handle posting today. I wanted to do my regularly scheduled recipe but also had to mention that it’s just impossible to go on totally normally this day. My oldest “celebrates” the day at school but she really has no idea – so strange to explain it to kids.

    1. omg I have to stop reading. it’s like I can’t help it but like you say, why do we do this to ourselves? I feel like I have to read it, it’s not fair of me to stop because it’s too much because people just like us had to live it, you know? so hard.

  2. I have always (well for the 2 years I’ve had my blog) debated whether or not to write about 9/11. I’m so glad I came across this post! It is something I can’t even talk or think about without a wave of emotions and tears. I was only in 2nd grade but I relive that day very regularly. We lived in Connecticut and my dad, along with all of my friends’ fathers, worked in the city at the time (his building was in Midtown, but I didn’t know that). Based on what our teacher’s told us (they “broke the news” before our parents got us), we didn’t know what to think. I’m overwhelmed by the amount of bravery and courage shown that day, and I pray that those stories live on forever.

  3. I still struggle to think about that day. It was horrifying and like you I remember exactly where I was and what I was doing at the time. I cried every time I turned on the TV and even now I fight back tears when I think about that day.

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